im begnining 2 believe dat i do not know myself anymore,all dat change in me, hw afraid of physical pain i've becum..maybe its a gd sign cos im finally living like a proper human being... in d past, i wld always seek n inflict physical pain 2 feel dat i still exist-is it a gd sign? or is it worse? d emotional void still, remain intact tightly in me. i've been putting off my blood test mainly of d cost of d test,contadictingly, it's primarily bcos im afraid of dat "ant bite"dat needle's going to cause me.yes i know, im useless bt even myself dont know y i am so afraid of that,to give myself a lame excuse, i wld tag tis 2 my last encounter wz needles_acupuncture(on my belly) d pain-*undescribable*.
